Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Accepting to a Fault yet Tragically Apathetic

I have been internalizing somewhat late last evening and early into the morning and this is what I've found: Over the past 10 years I have become so much more calm and laid back than I was earlier in my life. My level of anger has severely decreased. I fly off the handle rarely now and try to resolve conflict situations with reason and not emotion. So when someone says something that mildly hurts my feelings, I would once become angry and lash out, now I under react. However my personal feeling haven't changed much. I like the same thing with a few new interest mostly technology. My outlook on life has differed somewhat since I've became a father but remains mostly the same. I have the same delusions of grandeur in which I put myself up on a pedestal mostly because that's where I aspire to be. My ego is as large as ever mostly to cover up the way that I feel about myself deep down. The biggest change however is that I am much more accepting of the views of the others around me no matter how much I disagree with them or how much ignorance I have towards them. I try not to push my views onto others or to try to change their minds. I am accepting of other much to a fault mostly because I would like them to accept me? I don't apologize for myself or my interest no matter how other people view me or are ignorant of them. I don't try to have all the answers but I don't try to understand everything as much as I once did. In conclusion, I accept your views however I don't care what you think? I am big enough and much to self involved to get involved in a argument or conflict with a small minded person, who doesn't know how perceived differences are actually similarities?

...in any case feel free to criticize me openly but try to be objective in your criticism?


  1. Words of a large headed douche.

  2. You should do a blog on how delicious twinkies are