Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Bye Circuit City Hello HH Gregg.

With every ending there brings a new beginning, that being said I'll call this change. Change brings trepidation. I'm not gonna lie, I am confident, intelligent, full of myself, brilliant and secure, but and however, I am not immune to the fear and uneasiness that change brings. I often say no one needs to freak out till I start freaking out. I am not quite there yet.
Little Background: Not more than 2 years ago I started a project with a new company that I thought was solid, as well as the next big thing. #epicfail! In January this company folded and liquidated and the team that I hand-picked and grew was not only dispersed but unemployed as was I. Now I told myself that there was one place that I wanted to work and that was where I was going to aim. Well I hit it.
I've got the job I want, not necessarily the terms that I want but anything beats having my wife nervously pestering me on the regular. So begins a new chapter in this story that is "my so called fucked up life." I am genuinely excited and nervous. I am both happy and sad. I am little more than overwhelmed by my sense of resolve and the soap opera that was the process from me walking into someone Else's business and telling them that they are going to hire me to accepting the job.
So change is constant and ever looming in every situation, and I am glad to have a job again but wish it was the job I had. There are a multitude yet a myriad of emotions and logical thoughts running up and down my being. Could I be more incoherent? In any case. It's a change for the better.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Dropping the ball since 1908

So begins a new baseball season and as a life-long Cub's fan another chance to be disappointed! "This is our year" will soon turn into "there is always next year" which will in turn to "this will be our year?" WTF!?!? Yea I know we've got a good squad and we had one of the best records in baseball last year, however there is more to winning than talent. Winning is an attitude.
I feel very strongly about the Cubbie's and I think about Harry Caray nearly everyday. If he were here he'd say "holy cow" and then reference something being spelled backwards ..Oh and than he'd be disappointed that its been over a century since we have won the world series.
We could talk about goats and curses and Steve Bartman and about how Zambrano punched Michael Barret in his face but lets face it. We're losers. ...Lovable losers but losers none the less. I'm a loser. I bleed Cubbie blue. Let's just embrace our paradigm, lets not try to shift into a championship winning franchise, We can let the Yankees have that.
So I'm Going to tune in tonight to watch the cubs and pretty much watch every televised game that I can and root root root for the Cubbies...
...and get disappointed bacause We've been dropping the ball since 1908!!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

I am Ecclesiastes

So no profanity, no random useless opinionated rambling. Today we have a little insight to my inside. that wa elegant insight into my inside! yea I'm legit.

A while back I went to church there was a guest pastor who told the book of Ecclesiastes as an interview with a guy he was using to research a book. He basically paraphrased the book of Ecclesiastes. As I sat there listening I think man this sounds like me. So heres a little of what the book has to say.

“Vanity of vanities,” says the Preacher; “Vanity of vanities, all is vanity.”
Another version: "Meaningless! Meaningless!" says the Teacher. "Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless." What does man gain from all his labour at which he toils under the sun?
-I constantly feel like this shell that I wear is a "farce" completely devoid of meaning. Now I know having and raising kids is a joy and lends purpose to my existance granted, that set aside! It's a meaningless vanity.

"One generation goes, and another generation comes; but the earth remains forever."
-We have all sat through a history lesson, stories of the good ol' days we're writing those stories with our lives. We are just furniture in Mother Earths living room. Im some one's kid. My kid's are someones kid's. There kid's will have kid's. A never ending cycle. Which leads me to my next point.

"All the rivers run into the sea, yet the sea is not full. To the place where the rivers flow, there they flow again."
-This goes to the cyclical tendencies in nature. Everything comes full circle there are far too many examples so we will go with the rivers. Every beginning is anothers ending every ending brings a beginning. Where do I fit in to this? (rhetorical ?)

That which has been is that which shall be; and that which has been done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.
Another version: What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. Is there anything of which one can say, "Look! This is something new"? It was here already, long ago; it was here before our time. There is no remembrance of men of old, and even those who are yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow... ...I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind
-You ever feel like you have a good idea, just to find out someone else had it first? does this sound familiar? Plagerize much Shakespeare? ...anyway It's all been done before the next big thing is just something that we forgot was the big thing once. When are mustaches making a comeback?

What is twisted cannot be straightened; what is lacking cannot be counted
-Things that are done, are done. Thing that are said, are said. I can't undo them, I cant unsay them. I can apologize but all is meaningless.

For in much wisdom is much grief; and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.
-The polar opposite of the ol' cliche "ignorance is bliss" I consider myself quite wise. Not that I have been highly educated or have a sharp scientific mind however I have seen things and been apart of some pretty eye openig experiences. I am wise through experience and through learning and taking something out of every day, every moment, every conversation, every interaction, every observation. I pride myself on the ability to learn and adapt. Hence I have much Grief and sorrow.

Sorry to be so deep and heavy. I felt so uninspired today. This is why. If you ever see me and I'm so disenchanted, Its because I'm Ecclesiasties.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

This is not an April Fool's Joke!

Are you serious? to steal a famous John Black catch phrase! Is everyone going to preface their AF jokes with this is not an April Fools Joke? (...and to steal another one I'm not Gonna Lie. This is how I segway into a lie!)
So what have we learned? If someone tells you this is not an April Fools Joke it probably is. Don't be a gullable jack ass.
Why is it that on the first day of April I feel the need to get an alternate source verification on mundane news. Even second and third alternate source verification of random mundane news?
They say that in the 1500's when the Gregorian calendar took over for the Julian calendar. According to the Julian calendar New Years Day was April 1st. So the dumb asses who still celebrated New Years on April 1st were April Fools. So enough with the dumb ass historical reference bullshit. If you wanna read about it click http://www.snopes.com/holidays/aprilfools/origins.asp after you read the rest of my profanity laced rambling.
Here's my take on April Fools jokes: I think they are dumb as hell! Why do we need an arbitrary joke day? For I say Nay! We do not need a stupid joke day. But if it were up to me I would do away with April Fools Day. But and however just to preserve the spirit of a lack luster non-holiday whenever you feel like pulling a lame ass practical joke anytime throughout the year you just invoke that's an April fools joke. You know like Christmas in July or some shit!
So in the near future when I put my bare Testicle on something you own and email you a picture with the title April Fools Bitch! You know whats up!